So I know I've preached about cleaning out my closet and getting a whole new wardrobe before, like a while ago. Well, when I was on one of my (rare) cleaning/organizing/purging kicks recently, I went through my clothes and filled up a (as in only
one) large shopping bag of clothes I'd like to get rid of. Then I proceeded to fill (to the point of almost toppling over) my new clothes rack, thanks to our lack of closets. I haven't worn
half of that stuff in months, some a few years. Why do I feel the need to hang on to that crap? I think because they remind me of things in my past. Like friends I've lost touch with, days I could re-live over and over, and things I just don't do anymore.
It's time to grow up, and move on. While I loved those days (and hated others), I need to let go. I need to
dress the part. I want to be a successful, independent woman. Someone who can take care of herself, and others. Someone who radiates confidence, and therefore, beauty. I want to contribute something, and make a difference, not just
blend in anymore. I want to juggle a million and one things, well, and never give up or break down. I want to be motivated every day (or almost everyday) to go out, do or see or experience something new. I want to be healthy and energized. I want to be an inspiration, not forgotten. I want to be proud of myself. I want to be
good.
I feel that the first step, besides getting my head in the right place (which seems like it's pretty close) is to get rid of my inhibitions and things that are holding me back. While I don't have a whole lot of control of a lot of things right now, one thing I can control is how others see me. And most importantly, how I see myself.
I have been thinking about this for a couple days now, and I can't shake the feeling-not that I've really tried. I just kind of expected it to go away, like all of the other times I thought I was ready. Which makes me think it's not going to go away. Until I do something about it. And while it scares the you-know-what outta me, it's crazy exciting. I think I'm ready for a major change. Someone is telling me that it's time. Doors are going to open when I start allowing myself to get through the fear keeping them closed. The next free hour or so I can find, I am getting rid of the majority of my clothes and making room for the new, continuously growing, and inspired me.
Here are my current inspirations.
{All images via
my Pinterest, which helped spark my new found epitome.}
And PS- yes; this includes finally finding and sticking to a workout plan... it's gonna be a busy winter.